| ADOLFO |
[Aug. 22nd, 2004|02:03 pm] |
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well friday night, or (early saturday morning) i spent 5 hours in the back seat of daniels car with adolfo....well it didn't go all that good, but things weren't bad or boring, shall i say. i know i should stay away from him, but when i see him, he's just so damn fine all i really want to do with him is things other people can't watch us do. it's just hard to stay away from someone that you want so much. anyways, he's suppose to come to my house i'm not sure when or anything, but when he does, i'm not sure what i'm going to make of it, fuck it, if the opportunity presents itself i'm going to fuck him. he's hella fine, i can't let that go to waste.
oh yeah last night in like 6 hours, me, jimmy, ruben, daniel, marco and isaac smoked 5 blunts and 6 joints. then this morning when we got up we toked again with another blunt. anyways i got to go crystal is calling me. |
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| I'M 19 NOW........HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME |
[Aug. 21st, 2004|12:57 pm] |
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once again here i am writting in this damb thing, i don't really know why i keep it. i think i'm just scared to lose all the memories, i hate that. but anyways i don't really check my journal as much as i should, but oh well.
MY BIRTHDAY WAS ON THE 16TH I'M NOW 19!!!!
my life has changed a lot!!! i don't talk to any of my old friends. well frances called me the other day, but i don't think that i'll hear from her again soon, but oh well. oh i lied, i did get in touch with one of my friends from high school, david belote. he got kicked out of roosevelt with chris. david is awesome, i didn't realize how much i missed him, the first day we hung out he came and picked me up at my house. then once we got to his friends house, we decided that we didn't want to be there, so we all jumped into the van and went to long beach. it's cool over there, i want to move over there as soon as i can, i mean i feel like home over there, and i should considering that the nickname of the beach is stonerville usa. when we were over there, me and david went into 13 bong shops, and that was just on the beach. i was so happy over there, well it also helped that me and david were drinking a bottle of vodlka when we were walking around.
anyways, i got to admit that i do miss my old friends: frances, leelee, jeanette, mary, andrew, shawn, chris, nicole, and everyone else who was there for me in the past. but honestly the one person that i miss the most is denise. i wish she was here to help me with a lot of things that are just wrong in my life. i wish she didn't leave, i wish she was still around i really do need her a lot (like i stated before). it's weird, because right now i have the most friends that i've ever had, people just calling me left and right to hang out. but right now i feel the most alone. everyone left, denise left, she doesn't like me anymore. sometimes i wish i could just go back for a day and have my old drug free life back, but what for??? even if i do quit drugs...nobody will still be here. |
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| WOW....LOTS 'N LOTS OF SHIT TO SAY, AND EVEN MORE PICS |
[Jun. 23rd, 2004|03:57 am] |
well i haven't updated in a minute, i just don't know what to write, but here are some pics...
here is a picture of me, mike took it, i look hella bad but that's ok, cause i'm denise and i can do that.
here's a pic of mike, i think he's high.
 i'm not sure when this was, but the guys (wends:on my bed, and bum: the little one on the floor) showed up and hella just took over my room. but it's ok i didn't mind cause i knew that they were tired. they slept forever, so when i got tired, i had to sleep next to wends on the bed. (don't worry nothing happened, no more sex!!!, well i kinda wanted something to happen, but i'm glad that nothing did.)
here's edward crashed out on my floor
here's adolfo all stretched out on my bed like it was his. j/k lol they both look so cute when they are sleeping. but as soon as they get up they're a distruction waiting to happen. it's great though, i always know that i'm going to have fun when i'm around them.
well we recently had a kick back at alex's house here are pics....
here's a pic of me and my 8th grade walking buddy jason adams, he's so hot, i've always had a little crush on him since middle school.
here's me and my bestest buddy ever.....anthony. (he's a sweetie)
here's a pic of me and my best friend daniel
here's me and edward, he's the tallest guy i know, i'm on my tip toes in this pic. anyways he's cool, wants to get at me, i would but i don't want the drama of another guy again, wends was enough for a while.
speaking of the devil, j/k wends is a wonderful person, and a fun friend. here is a pic of me and adolfo, i hate the way i came out, he doesn't like the way he came out either. but i'm not going to delete it. look at my face, i look so scared and nurvous, i WAS scared/nurvous cause i still really like him, i get so nurvous when i'm around him, that i can't look him in his eyes most of the time (which are very beautiful by the way, he has light brown eyes) and most of the time i don't know what to say to him, or how to act around him, i really care what he thinks about me, but what sucks is that i think i gave him the worst impression of me when we first started hanging out, but we've been hanging out a lot lately, we just spent 3 days together (sun, mon, tues), night and day, he left for a couple of hours tuesday morning, but he came back. he has my glasses on, he took them away from me, he said they made him look pimp, and that they looked better on him then they did on me (i still say that i looked better in them, but he's still fine) anyways this was the last day that i had them, and i only had them half the day, in the afternoon when we went to kerney park, in daniels new car. it started to get dark so we decided to leave, and wends took them when we were in the car. ok anways a little after we took this pic i went with daniel and monica to one of his friends house, and when we got back to the party, wends, bum, and jason were running inside of the gate, wends had a 18 pack of budweiser in his arm, and bum had two, one under each arm. i already knew that they went and did a beer run. they were scared because the cops were chasing them, but they somehow managed to lose them, which is so good cause if they were caught they would have went to jail. :(
*WARNING THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS MATERIALS THAT MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR PEOPLE WHO DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT PERSONAL INFOMATION ON ADOLFO AND ME, SO PLEASE IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT, TURN AWAY FROM YOUR COMPUTER MONITOR NOW*
anyways i could go on and on forever talking about adolfo but i know i shouldn't, it's just he's so fucken hot, like 90% of the time that he's around me i just want to go up to him and kiss him and let him do whatever he want to me, but i always hold back, cause i'm not sure what he thinks of me. i don't know maybe it's just the attachment that i feel with him cause i lost my virginity to him, i didn't really get to enjoy the sex cause we only did it a couple of times, but the first time hurt like hell, i mean don't get me wrong i enjoyed it, but i had to have him stop like 3 times cause it hurt. plus like something that didn't help, but was really good, and still is very good, was that he's not very small. i mean out of the guys that i have seen, adolfo definitly is the biggest. anyways, the last time we had sex, it felt hella bomb. but we didn't get to finish, cause frances showed up and we had to leave to steve's kickback. so acturially now that i think about it, i never had sex to it's fullish potiential. i didn't cum or anything, first two times hurt to much, the third it hurt but not as much as the first 2, i was just really sore. the fourth time almost, but didn't finish. he always came, well not the last time, he didn't finish either, but he didn't have a problem. i liked when he would go slow, he worked that shit slow hella good. but his favorite was doggy style fast, i mean i'm not complaining or anything but after awhile my stomach would hurt. i think my favorite would have to have been, me on top. cause he would hella touch and grab and kiss me everywhere. plus i really liked having my hands on his chest. he's shit is hard, he works out, he's very strong, it's very sexy to know that your man can protect you. i always felt protect with adolfo, especially when i was wraped in his arms. ok anyways, all this writing about him, makes me just want to call him up right now and tell him to come over so we can mess around. (of course i can't do that cause it's 6 in the morning, and i don't think that he can find a ride over here, and i really don't want him to walk. i'll just leave it, and i'll get some sleep first. i hope something happens again between us soon. i really miss kissing him, and hugging him, and especially holding his hand.
sorry that went on a little long, but i'm still stuck on him. it's weird how he just has a hold on me. but anyways here are the rest of the pics from the party.
here's jason and edward getting ready to get the night started.
here's jimmy (who got arrested and sent to jail this night) vince and the ever adorable wendser
here's mr. bum poe and jimmy
here's bummer again, he's not camara shy
here is darlene and angel
ok here is anthony (sitting on the table) frances is next to him. next to frances is edward, then one of the reedley girls (they are bum's girlfriends friends) and in the front of the photo is edward downing the rest of his beer.
ok right to left, jason, jimmy, adolfo (notice he had my glasses and a beer in each hand. i guess one isn't enough, he does drink a lot) then sitting down there is vince and bum.
well this is the day after the party, wends steve and daniel came and crashed at my house. i don't think i was here at this time, i think i went to go cash my check with my mom. anyways i love having adolfo at my house, even though we don't do anything, just having him here with me. being able to glance down from my bed and see him sleeping on the floor next to me, it's wonderful. i took them to mcdonalds a little after this pic was taken, but no one was hungry (except for daniel) so we all just got milkshakes. then we hella had a mission trying to get to bums house. but we got there, smoked with bum, then my mom came and took steve to ezzies house and adolfo went to darlenes house, he invited me to stay, and i wanted to, but i didn't want to stay there all night, it was already 10pm and i dont think that my mom would of wanted to pick me up again. but i should of stayed with him cause now i'm here at my house alone it's 630 in the morning, i can't sleep and i'm bored. (which is the main reason why this entry is so long. there's just a lot of pics that i have to show.) anyways i'm going to go now, i have a meeting with the bong then with my bed for some z's. i'll update soon i hope, but until then i leave you with these adorable pictures.... of course this section is for adolfo
a kiss for wends
wends looks fucken hella good in this pic
and of course i have to put this pic (one of my favs) i just love the way he's looking at me.
THIS SECTION ADDRESSED TO ADOLFO RAYAS
adolfo i just want you to know that i think you are a wonderful person, and that i would love to be with you again, i truly am deeply infatuated with you, i want to get to know you more. and i know that we should build a friendship between us first, so that there's a bond between us already that we could build on. because if we get together again i don't want it to be a short thing. i want to acturially try and have a relationship with you. i want to show you things that you haven't seen yet, take you places you haven't been yet, make you feel things you haven't felt yet. i want you to make love to me all night long (then again a couple of times in the morning and then again in the afternoon). i want to do things to you that i haven't done yet, we could probably come up with some new freaky shit together too, and i know that you can teach me and show me and do to me a lot of things i don't know yet. on a more public level, i want to help you through school, we can come to my house or to your house and help eachother with our homework. i want to help you in college, guide you and show you what to take what not to take, which teachers are hard or not. i want to be a that friend that is always there for you no matter what. i want to use my experiences to make your experience a little easier, and i really really want you to finish high school and go to college, because your smart and i know you can do it. i want to lay in bed in your arms and read a book together, or watch tv. i just want to treat you good, and show you that he can have that mature and real love,
that you've talked about, you can have that with me, because i want it with you too. i want to show you that not all girls are hoes or sluts or bitches, i want you to know that you can have a girl that just wants to satisfy you and only you and you won't have to worry about me fucking one of your homies, you don't even have to worry about me even looking or thinking about one of your friends in that way, shape or form. honestly i'm tired of little things that lead nowhere, and truthfully the longest relationship that i've had was just a little over 2 months. but i don't want that to lead you to believe that i won't be able to handle a relationship, because i know i can, i'm ready for one, and i really want my first real relationship to be with you. i want you to let me be there for you through the good and the bad, i want to treat you the way a women is suppose to treat a man, i want to make your heart melt, i want to make you laugh and smile when your feeling down. and in time i want to prove to you that your more important than anything else.
everything that you want in a realtionship i can give you, you'll never have to worry about me hurting you. Adolfo....i ain't perfect, but i promise i won't do you wrong. so give me a chance to make you happy, let me kiss you and hug you and hold you and care for you. lets
get to understand eachother in ways that we never thought possible, your a beautiful person and i want you to be apart of my life, you make me happy. so let me be apart of your life, let me make you happy, let me satisfy you.
all i would ask of you in return,is for you to be faithful and honest, and also just hold my hand. |
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[May. 20th, 2004|02:55 am] |
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there is so much to write, but there is no time. i'm going to go to sleep right now because it's the first time in a long time that i've been home all night with no one else here. it feels kinda weird, i think i've gotten use to having someone with me all the time. i even have people with me when i'm a sleep. anyways i'm think i'm going to go fuck i'm hella high right now :) well i really have to go steve wants everyone at the house at 12, so i'm just going to hit the bong one more time then crash out for 6/7 hours. i'll write more asap. later- ♥ |
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| YEA |
[May. 11th, 2004|08:22 am] |
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i am so stoned right now, the funny thing is.........i'm at work. :) -♥ |
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[May. 10th, 2004|03:24 pm] |
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i haven't really updated in a while. honestly it's just because there is so much going on right now that i don't know where to start, and honestly i don't know if i want anyone reading all of my business. but yeah i'll just write some things. well i dont really talk to any of my "older" friends, i know that i'm hard to get along with, but it's just because i'm so use to people leaving so i don't really like getting close to people. i know that i've been hanging with mary and frances a lot but i don't really like to talk to them, i mean i do talk to them, but i love them so much that i don't want to get so close to them and then they leave, just like other people in my life. i don't know well let's talk about something else.
if your a person that visits my journal regularly then you might of notice some pics that were posted but then taken down very rapidly. well the reason for that is just that i was played hella dirty but i learned my lession and it's all done and over with now, i can't take anything back. so yeah well my room is fucken messy. everyone have been kicking back at my house for like a week straight now. the other day is was me, mary, frances, steve, stinch, darlene, angel, carlos, kenneth, & intro. all 10 of us were in my fucken little room, i couldn't believe it. but yeah, we were kicking back because mike left and everyone was sad so we just all got together and talked about things, and i hella got fucked up. i got hella hooked up that night for 20 dollars. i still have some right now.
well mary just called me right now her class was cancelled so she coming over here right now i'll finish writting later about some other stuff but i'm not sure when that's going to be because i'm hardly ever home and when i am home someone is always over i swear. but yeah it's hella fun, well i'm going to go and get my stuff ready to take a shower cause it's almost 4 and i haven't even showered. i only got up like 2 hours ago. so yeah later- ♥ |
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[May. 8th, 2004|09:29 pm] |
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i am so high right now it's not even funny. i'm at a friends car shop and there is hella weed. mary is here with me she's passed out right now on the couch in the other room. i need to wake her up but i can't get up. oh wait she got up welli'm going to go now. i'll update when i get a chance. |
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[Apr. 26th, 2004|07:27 pm] |
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omg i just wrote a big long entry but i deleted it on a accident. fuck i don't have time to write it over again, but i'm going to try well yeah let me just do a fast update:
friday: went to a party with frances mary steve carlos darlene kenneth. there was a chick fight, this one chick hella got her head smashed with a beer bottle. after the party i went with mary to kenneths house, because carlos wanted me to go. (but nothing happened between us, he's not really my type, but he's cool)
saturday: went out to a club dance with mary frances and ezzie, it was hella fun, i just didn't like it when guys would come up to me and try to feel on me and dace with me so next time i'm going to take wendz with me so he could be my bodyguard.
sunday: went out in the morning with jeanette, that was hella cool. go home then went out with frances steve darlene and wendz. we just went driving around. then wendz spent the night at my house. but i don't think that i'll write about that right now, cause i don't know what to say.here's a pic of wendz |
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| 420 |
[Apr. 20th, 2004|05:43 pm] |
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HAPPY 420!!!
......now go and get high, i know i am *wink wink* hahahaha
it's going to be a wonderful day |
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| EDWARD |
[Apr. 17th, 2004|01:54 am] |
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i really like edward.....and that's not cool! |
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[Apr. 16th, 2004|06:58 pm] |
fuck you chantra, how the fuck are you going to get mad at me??? you said that you wanted to party with me, that's how it is when you go party hopping. what the fuck did you want me to do? did you expect me to stay with you the whole night and hold you motherfucken hand??? bitch it's not my fault, if you wanted to hang out just me and you then you should of just said something and i would of gladly went. but it's not my fault i can't fucken read your mind. i was having fun talking and hanging with everyone, no one, not one fucken person said that you had to stay in the motherfucken house. i thought you liked it in there talking to lisa or some shit like that. but fuck that don't get mad at me for you lack of people skills, you know as fucken well as i do that you could've been out there talking to everyone. you didn't have to smoke or anything, but just be out there chilling with me have some fun and get to know some people before you left, that would've been kewl. but no you always want it to be just me and you, don't you know that that shit get's boring. but anyways it's your fucken problem and if you want to sit there and blame me then go the fuck ahead and do that cause i don't give a fuck, not anymore. it's all about parting now, not friends. i don't need another denise.
this is what i wrote before chantra broke into my journal and deleted it, how childish. i just wanted this in here because i wrote it when i was mad and it belongs in here!!! |
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| SLEPT WITH EDWARD (WELL KINDA) |
[Apr. 16th, 2004|03:32 pm] |
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wow, yesterday was hella fun (as always) me and frances went to bums (edward) house because frances wanted to see steve. i took punch out because edward wanted to play, he only lasted 48 seconds in the ring with tyson. (it was funny) he got all butt hurt. lol. then we went into edwards room and steve showed me how to make a water bong. he made one out of a sierra mist bottle. it hella hit good. anyways, me and frances ended up spending the night over there. it felt really good to spend the night with edward, well we didn't really sleep (but that's ok) it was me and bum in bum's room and frances and steve in bum dad's room. me and frances had to leave hella early this morning in order to have ezzies car back to her before she left to work. she came and got me up at like 630am. i didn't want to leave edward i just kept kissing him until frances yelled at us. then me and frances left and we went and got breakfast at mcdonalds. then we got to frances house ate then red showed up (red is mary's nickname) but i have no idea how long she stayed, cause i crashed out as soon as i finished eating. but i do know that she spent the night at frances house with kennith (i think that's how you spell his name) it was a good night. me and frances were talking on the way home to her house and she said that she thought it was funny that all three of us (me mary and frances) had all gotten laid. well i didn't get laid but i still had fun, hahahahaha. well anyways i'm home right now it's 4.28pm mike gave me a ride home at 2 or so. well i need to get ready i'm just sitting here my hair is almost dried. i think i'm going to frances house for a little bit then i'm coming home to eat pizza and watch movies with my family. hopefully it will be a good night. ♥ |
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[Apr. 15th, 2004|01:37 am] |
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well i'm not going to stoop to your level and write about some of the shit that you told me just for me to know. i'm not that kind of person. i also want to tell you that no one likes you, andrew never liked you, he thought you were annoying i always had to beg him to let me take you over there. nobody likes you, my mom doesn't like you, my sisters, now frances doesn't like you, neither does mary, frances said if you ever come to fresno your gonna meet her fist. (gotta love my best friend) and that's just fucked up how you could write how you did this and you did that for me cause in reality you never did shit. yeah we talked sometimes but that was long ago. you don't know me, so dont act like you do. it was always me doing shit for you, i've always found a way when you use to call me in the middle of the night to pick you up that you gotten in a fight with this person or that person. but yeah it doesn't even matter anymore, you know what i'm just going to stop, your a childish little girl and i'm not going to argue with you.
oh yeah and you really shouldn't be talking about anorexic people, i'm way bigger than you, take a look in the mirror honey (i highly doubt you'll like what you see) as for me i'm fucken beautiful as fuck, and you know that so don't be jealous. and hell yeah i would chose weed over you any day, as of my life hells yeah, just as long as i'm high when i die, i'll die happy.
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[Apr. 15th, 2004|12:50 am] |
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chantra you little lesbian bitch...don't fucken hate on the truth. your fucken soooooooooooooooooo lucky your in texas. but i know i'll catch up to you again, and don't worry you'll get yours. you fucked with the wrong bitch!! |
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| FIGHT....AND HAIR DYE |
[Apr. 14th, 2004|08:42 pm] |
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there's about to be a fight in my apartment complex....AGAIN!!! well i don't know if it's going to happen for sure but i hope it does, i'm gonna go and put on my shoes now just in case. i haven't gotten in a fight for like 3 months now and i really need to hit somebody. shit i don't care if it's not my fight fuck i'll make it mine, i have a big mouth i know i can turn it just a little. anyways i'll write again later tonight.
oh yea i dyed my hair i'll post a picture later, it's a auburn.
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[Apr. 7th, 2004|08:41 pm] |
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got my passport in the mail today....hahaha one more step closer to france. man it's totally smack yourself (hahahaha....got to love bum) |
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| WEED |
[Apr. 7th, 2004|08:37 pm] |
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CAN'T GET HAPPY.....NEED WEED!!! |
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| MARY+ME+BUM+FRANCES+STEVE=FUN FUN FUN!!! |
[Apr. 5th, 2004|08:12 am] |
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omg, theres just so much to say, i'm just going to type until i get tired. well i've been having so much fun, but it has been tiring. it's so fun in fact that if it came down to sleeping or hanging out i would choose to hang out, that's pretty much what i've been doing. but so what it's spring break i'm suppose to hang out and be with my friends. anyways frances and mary go here ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif?v=88.8) for_bum yes i created it hahahahaha!!! well i've been with these people everyday it has been awesome (totally smack yourself!!!)
ok let me start with the first day (you know i don't even know what day this was to be honest, well it was me ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8) frances_aranda and redmary_33 we were at frances house just kicking back and being on the computer, i was showing them some lj stuff. anyways like around 10 or so, we went outside and we sat under the stars and just talked, i hella toked up though. then around 11:30 or midnight, we decided to go to dennys cause i was hungry, on the way over there we stoped at chris's old house and i hella smoked a bowl on his old front lawn. it's was fun.
then i went over to spend the night at frances house on thursday that was really fun. it was steve frances me and bum, mary was there to but she left at like 3 in the morning. i took the texas chinsaw massicure movie so we could watch it. we ended up all getting high together then going to watch the movie. but before that we went to dennys omg i've never had more fun at dennys then i did that night. bum and steve are really cool. bum just hella makes me laugh so much. he's just crazy, oh yeah and before we went into dennys we got high in the parking lot, so that we would be able to eat a lot. but we are fucken retards and we ended up smoking in front of a window at the comfort inn or suite i don't know what the fuck it was called. but yeah we didn't even realize it until we were done, there were people inside too. but oh well. i ended staying up all night with bum and steve, watching tv, i called in to work on friday i just told them that i had a dentist appointment. sharon (my boss)said that it was ok and gave me the day off.
the next day we all went around looking for a game for my nintendo, bum really wanted punchout so we had to go and get it for him because he was whineing like a baby. lol. ;) we didn't get punch out that night but yeah bum still has my nintendo, he won't give it back to me ♥ but that's ok i never really play it anyways.
yesterday me frances and mary went to the salon, they both got a pedicure and i got a manicure. then we went shopping, i bought new pants and two new bras. mary bought shirts i think and frances got make-up. then we went to go eat a johns incrediable pizzeria. that was really fun, today we are going to go again. it's going to be frances and steve, mary and josh (guy she's talking to), and me and bum. it's going to be hella fun, i know it's going to be, i'm going to see if they want to get high before we go in. i really love hanging out with steve and bum, especially bum he's so funny and loud and crazy anyways oh yeah they have a pet rock i have a picture of it but i'll have to upload it later. and oh yeah steve made a pipe out of a potato and me bum steve and frances got high with a potato i should of taken a picture of it but i forgot i'm going to go now i'll write again later. |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2004|06:44 pm] |
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omg, i've been having the time of my life, for the past two days i've been with frances_aranda, i'm home right now, but i'm getting ready to leave again, frances is going to come and pick me up again. i spent the night at her house last night and the night before i was over at her house until like 1 in the morning. i'm glad that i found my true friends [frances_arandaredmary_33] i love both of them, they truely are my best friends, i find it amazing on how they both have a boyfriend, they got to school and they have jobs, but they make so much time for me, i've never had that before. I L♥VE YOU GUYS!!! YOU GUYS ARE MY BEST MY FRIENDS!!! i have to go frances it here. update later |
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| I MISS CHRIS |
[Mar. 30th, 2004|09:14 pm] |
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| | BSB- BACK TO YOUR HEART | ] |
These arms of mine are open wide from now until the end of time
You are my world what can i do, this heart of mine belongs to you ♥ |
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| ??? |
[Mar. 30th, 2004|09:55 am] |
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well here i am at work once again. sharon (my boss) just told me that she needs me to work over spring break, it really sucks. i thought that i was going to be able to sleep in over the break, but anyways i have to work if i want to be able to go to france with the band. i have to work mon-thursday. monday i have to work from 8-12 tuesday is the same hours, but on wednesday, i have to work from 8-2 on thursday i have 1-5. i don't have to work on friday, which is great, but it would be better if i was to have everyday off, but i just need to suck it up and do it, shit i'm gonna come to work in my pajamas, fuck it. ♥ well i have class soon at 11am, it's 10:25 right now. i don't want to go but i have to because i've never missed this class, even when i was sick i never missed this class, when i was sick i was giving a speech in this class. but yeah, i don't know maybe i should miss it just once this semester, no i'm not going to i'm going to go i'm already here anyways well i don't know what else to write but i don't want to work so i'm just going to say and bs some more. i don't know i haven't been feeling like myself lately. i think i might be getting a little depressed, i don't want to get depressed. i don't want to work here anymore as soon as this semester is done i'm out of here, i'm not going to work here anymore, i just kinda hate it. well most of the time i hate it, sometimes i like it. but i don't know i'm going to try my hardest to find another job soon. anyways it's 11:30 now time is going by so slowly. slllloooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwlllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. i don't know what else to write oh wait i thought of something, for easter me and my family are going to go to santa cruz, i'm going to take frances_aranda with me it's going to be fun, hopefully we'll see a lot of cute guys, but frances has a boyfriend so that really won't matter. andrew came over to my house yesterday, we both went over to frances house until she had to go to school at 5. after 5 me and andrew went back to my house, i hella got stoned, but that's ok i can do that. it was fun. well i'm going to go now because i'm going to do my make-up for my next class i'll write again soon. |
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| FRANCES GOTS A JOURNAL |
[Mar. 29th, 2004|02:39 pm] |
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my best friend frances_aranda just got a lj, go and say hi and add her to your friends list, because she's cool, and i love her ♥. |
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| NEW THINGS |
[Mar. 27th, 2004|12:24 pm] |
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| | Ludacris- Screwed up | ] |
i got a new bam shirt....it's awesome, came in the mail yesterday, i don't want to take it off. click here to check it out
my dogs shoes came as well, well it's not my dog it's my sister's renees' dog but i always buy baby (the dog) new things. click here to see baby |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 25th, 2004|11:41 pm] |
♥Denise and ♥Chris | - Will conceive three gruesome children.
- Love to write to each other when permitted.
- Would volunteer to be the two responsible for re-populating the planet.
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[Mar. 24th, 2004|07:53 pm] |
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i don't feel like doing shit....i don't want to finish school, it's just so tiring. i don't want to work, i don't want to walk i don't want to talk. i just want to stay stoned all day, sleep and watch tv occasionally. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 23rd, 2004|10:04 pm] |
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| | usher- yea (watching his broadband concert) | ] |
well i had a concert tonight, it was fun, it was the FCC concert band and orchestra. anyways before the concert started, i was outside with this chick sarah, having a cigarette, and guess who passed by? i didn't believe it at first anyways, it was jesse settle. i haven't seen or talked to him for almost 2 years now.....i think. it was really weird seeing him. we just stood there talking for awhile, he's still married, he's working and taking night classes, and he's helping out with the drum line at sunnyside high, which means that he see chris. jesse basically told me that the drum line at sunnyside sucks, and that chris doesn't really like jesse being there telling him what to do. anyways, i know i said this already, but it was so weird seeing him again. it just, i don't know just seeing him, it just brought back some feelings and memories. i know i can't act on them, because he's married. i ended up walking him to his class, we talked outside of his class then i had to go to go and tune my flute. so he gave me a hug and that was it. i'm glad that i seen him when i was at a concert, because i was dressed up. i know i was looking good, i had my hair curled, my make-up done right and i was wearing a shirt. i don't know it's just weird that we (jesse & i) can't really date anymore. marriage sucks!!! i'm not going to lie, he looked good to, i mean he's not all that or anything, but i was looking, it's not like he wasn't checking me out either. married or not he was looking, and i didnt really care, don't worry i'm not going to do anything with him, i know it's wrong, and i probably won't even see him for a while. anyways, it was weird seeing him, i don't know i thought about him throughout the concert. it just sucks that he's married, that's all i'm going to say, it sucks! |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 16th, 2004|10:11 pm] |
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FUCK!!!...i just got caught toking up by my mom. she really didn't do anything, she just closed the door. i don't think that she'll tell me anything, but i didn't want her to know, i don't know why i did it here, i just thought that she would never walk into my room like she did, but i guess i was wrong. fuck i fucken fucked up, big time. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 8th, 2004|04:15 pm] |
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| | none- watching the simpsons | ] |
here are some of the first pictures that i took with my new digital camera. here is a little of what happened: frances and mary picked my up at 11pm and we went to eat at taco bell in mary's new truck. then we went to one of anthony's friends house that was really fun. then we decided at 2am to go to denny's to get ice cream. i had even more fun at denny's.
me mary and frances
mary advertising the breakfast menu @ Denny's.......
me and frances
mary and anthony after they finished eating their ice cream
mary
ketchup with frances
mary and frances in the car at the taco bell drive threw
anthony
anthony with his ice cream sunday
this is me in my room after i got home @ 4am- it was a great night, but i was tired!!! after this picture was taken mary called me and told me that when they were dropping anthony off at home, that there was a fire.....a van was on fire. so frances saved the day by calling the fire department. i was really disappointed because i wasn't there, i wanted to be around the fire men, i love fire men.....they are so HOT!!! anyways frances is a hero!!! woohoo for frances. i have awesome friends. oh me and anthony are going to plan a something this weekend so i'll put some more pictures of me and all of my very bestfriends. |
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| FOR FRANCES |
[Feb. 29th, 2004|11:12 pm] |
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here is a picture of me and frances
here is a picture of me and mary
here is all three of us (i look retarded)
here are pictures for frances
it's frances and anthony
here is a picture of anthony (he's so adorable....i love you buddy!!!...check out the tongue ring)
here's a picture of frances....i love you monkeyface!!! i don't know what i would do without you...your my best friend
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| FUN DAY |
[Feb. 28th, 2004|04:52 pm] |
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yesterday was a fucken good ass day.....i went to work and school. then after i got out of my class, i called frances and we decided that we wanted to hang out. so she came and picked me up. we went to the bank then we went to the bakery across from roosevelt, and she bought us something to eat. it felt weird to go to the bakery when school was in, and not have to worry about the administration coming and busting me for ditching. but anyways i we went back to her house and we were going to eat but it had to much meat in it so i couldn't really eat a lot of it. but i was hungry. nobody else was home so i went into her back yard and smoked of bowl of some shit that andrew gave me, out of my first every glass pipe that i bought the other day. it's blue. i ate a little more after then, then we were sitting down in her living room and we decided that we wanted to get everyone together. so we went to wal-mart, it was the second time that i've been to wal-mart stoned. we bought some stuff, because we were going to have everyone over and roast marsh mellows. after wal-mart, she dropped me off at my house and she went to school, she had a class.
at around 7:30pm my mom dropped me off at frances house, it was so much fun. it was me, frances, mary, anthony, giovanni, some guy that frances is talking to, that guys cousin, and andrew. we hella toked up at the party to. andrew rolled a fat ass joint. it was so much fun....we had the fire going and then we had esmeralds (a relative of frances) little torces thingy's. it looked really cool the way frances set it up.
oh and something weird happened, jeanette called me when i was there. i was high, and when i'm high i bascially can get along with anybody, they told me to let her come over so i was like ok. she came over because she wanted to get high, i was like cool i'll get high with you. after when she was getting ready to leave, she told me that she didn't want any enemies. i didn't know what to say, i didn't like her because she didn't like me, but i never really thougth about anything, i mean about her. it wasn't nothing, i only thought about it when someone talked about her, and that's about it, but oh well i just had to see what andrew thinks. but yeah after everyone left the party we were all hungry so me frances, anthony, andrew, giovanni, and his bestfriend, we to pizza hut. they weren't open they were locking the door, but giovanni's b/f called ahead and made then take our order. then when we got there they didn't want to open the door, but giovanni's b/f argued with then until they opened the door. we got our pizza, it was so funny to see her yelling at them, i was still alittle high, and it was so funny. after that frances took us all home. andrew's grandma didn't want to pick him up so he had to spend the night at my house. it was fun, we stood up the whole night and played nintendo and i showed him stuff on the internet. he left this morning at 8am. he had work at 10. anyways, it was cool.
right now i have to go because i have to get ready to go to anthonys house. he's throwing a little something, i'm going to go and get drunk, (i'm just playing i don't drink a lot i learned my lesson the night when i hung out with marissa and amrick) anyways i'll write again later, bye- |
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| SHAWN |
[Feb. 25th, 2004|11:52 pm] |
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| | Jason Mraz- you and i both | ] |
i think shawn is mad at me...he didn't want to talk to me when i im-ed him. |
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| DREAM |
[Feb. 25th, 2004|06:31 pm] |
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| | none-watching charmed | ] |
well i had weird dream last night.....of course it was of denise. i don't remember how but somehow me ans someother people ended up at denise's house...i was still mad at her of course and i didn't want to talk to her. we were in her room...i don't remember who the people were. but anyways, i went to the bathroom, and when i came back denise had told me that the other people had went home. i didn't know what to say, so i just sat down on the bed. then somehow, i ended up outside, i walked into the living room, josh and her dad michael were there eating pizza. i walked into denise's room, and she was sitting there, she had plates and pizza for us. i sat down next to her, and we started talking and she started crying we just talked and talked, but eventually we became friends again. then we ate the pizza that was in the shape of pants.
weird......but yeah, my family has been asking about denise. they don't know that we aren't talking, i just keep telling them that we are both really busy. renee asked me why i don't call her. i didn't know what to say. i just kinda shrugged it off. i don't know i think that i'll be able to just not think about it if we didn't stop talking on horrible terms. i think i'm just going to be the bigger person and call her. i don't know i'll see what andrew says. i know that i'll probably not listen to andrew, but i have to ask someone's opinion, and andrew is my best friend right now. oh and i do need someone else's opinion to......chantra. chantra what do you think i should do? |
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| SICK |
[Feb. 24th, 2004|11:09 pm] |
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i'm sick right now, and it sucks!!! i missed work for the past two days. (it's ok though because i never miss work, and i'm really acturially sick, unlike some of my other employees who just call in to call in) i hate being sick it sucks ass hard!!! i think i'm getting better. i ate a soup tonight and now i feel like i have a little more energy. my nose won't stop running. i had to give a speech this way today. but it went ok. i have to go so that i ca sleep now. i'll write again later |
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| YESTERDAY.....AND SOME BIRTHDAYS |
[Feb. 22nd, 2004|01:13 pm] |
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| | NONE- WATCHING CKY 2K | ] |
well i went out yesterday with andrew, chantra and matio (i think that's how you spell his name) it was so much fun. first they went to go pick chantra up, then they all came to pick me up. first we went to andrews house and got stoned in matio's car. then we decided to got to wal-mart. that was fun, that was the first time that i have every gone to wal-mart faded. i bought two new lotions and a new lip gloss. after we got out of wal-mart, we all decided that we were hungry so we all went back to andrews house and we sent his grandmother for some pizza's. when his grandmother was gone we all went on his patio and hella toked up some more. it was funny, at one point andrew hella freaked matio out, he told matio that he heard the door open, matio hella ran to the room, fast!!!! it was so funny, you guys had to be there. then we really heard the car so me chantra and matio hella took off running and left andrew on his patio, god i wish i had taken a camera, i'm going to buy one soon, so that i can record when i get high, then i can make my own movies, with the movie making program. i just made a video of bam, it came out great i need to find a way to upload my videos onto the internet so everyone could see them.
anyways, what to know something weird?.......yesterday was denise's birthday, and the 18th was chris's birthday. it really sucks because i really wanted to call both of them on their birthdays. but i knew that if i called chris it would just be bad!!! and denise, well i just didn't call because since she doesn't care about me enought to call me after like 3 weeks or so, then why should i call her? i don't think that me and denise are ever going to be friends again. because i'm not going to call her, and i know that she doens't care enough about me to call me first. i think the only way she will call me is if her and her b/f break up. right now she has her boyfriend, and i know that she cares about him more than she cares about me. even though we've been "best friends" almost 5 years now, and she's been with him for like 2 months or something like that. but that's ok....i guess. it's getting easier for me to not care about her, i mean the longer it gets that i haven't talked to her, the longer it takes for her to call me, it just makes me realize that i'm really not that important to her life, it's like the longer it takes for her to call me the angier i get at her. and it really does suck, but oh well fuck it right. she doesn't give a fuck about me, if she did then she would of called me by now right? i had her present but i took it back, i had bought her a new lamp for her room, because everytime we would go into her room, it would take forever to turn the lamp on because it had like a short or something. but yeah i got my money back, and i got me some make-up. it just sucks that the two people that i cared about so much, that i loved, don't give a fuck about me, so FUCK THEM....FUCK THEM UP THEIR STUPID ASS HOLES!!!!!!! |
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[Feb. 16th, 2004|04:49 pm] |
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| VALENTINES DAY |
[Feb. 15th, 2004|11:19 pm] |
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| | H.I.M-BURIED ALIVE BY LOVE | ] |
so how was everyone's v-day? mine was good, first my "valentine" (frances) came over and we had a heart shaped pizza and drank soda, and we exchanged gifts it was fun. then they (he and anthony)left. and i went over to andrews house, it was me him and chantra, we toked up and watch cky and once upon a time in mexico it was fun. i really like that movie. anyways yeah it was awesome |
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[Feb. 15th, 2004|11:19 pm] |
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i got my journal how i want it to look, everyone should visit it and comment on how you like it |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 15th, 2004|11:13 pm] |
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| | wild cherry- play that funky music | ] |
i just joined a new community pot_heads it's pretty cool |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 13th, 2004|01:16 pm] |
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well i'm finally getting my journal to look the way i want it to look, i still need to change the color of the scroll bar and i need to change some other minor things so that it will be just perfect. ♥i learned how to make these little hearts ♥. i stood up all night reading the how to journal, and i learned a lot of new things. but anyways, i'm going to go now, i have to get ready, brenda is going to pick me up at 2, we're going to go to octavia's house. all the people that i work with are going to get together at her house, she's going to make us something to eat so i have to go. i'll write again later.
bye ♥ |
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i just got hit on by some guy at work....he asked for my number, but i said no, i had to i'm at work and i have to be "professional". but anyways, after i said no, he asked me that if he see's me 2 more times can he get my number then. i told him i'll think about it, maybe if he tries hard and doesn't give up then i'll give him my #, but i doubt that i'll ever see him again. |
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| FAST INTERNET.....FINALLY!!! |
[Feb. 9th, 2004|03:28 pm] |
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| | none- i'm watching will and grace | ] |
i now have comcast cable internet connection. it is faster then dial up, i don't ever think i'm gonna want to go back to dial up again, now i have to call and cancel aol. but yeah i'm so excited. i'm going to surf the internet now i'll write again later. |
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| I WANT A BOYFRIEND.....ANY TAKERS??? |
[Feb. 9th, 2004|08:56 am] |
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| | LEEANN RIMES- I NEED YOU | ] |
i really want a boyfriend...i don't know why it's so hard for me to find one. valentines is comming up, i hate valentines day, i never really have anyone on that day. it just reminds me how alone i am. i hate it. |
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| A DREAM |
[Feb. 9th, 2004|08:41 am] |
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| |  confused | ] |
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| | none- but i do hear the copy machine (i'm at work) | ] |
i had a dream last night....me and denise were friends again.
i've been thinking a lot about calling, but i don't know if i should or not. i mean....i don't know, everything is so confusing. i bet you shes not even thinking about our friendship the way i am, i should just stop, i just need to give it up. |
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| A LITTLE BIT OF EVERYTHING |
[Feb. 8th, 2004|11:14 pm] |
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| | none- i'm watching cry baby | ] |
i went to andrews house yesterday, it was me andrew and chantra, we hella got stoned, it was funny chantra was funny, she kept saying that she couldn't feel anything, it was fun, i hope we do it again soon.
i'm really starting to miss "him" i really want to call "him" i know that he can help with a lot of things, but then i know that theres a chance that he can make everything a lot worst. i don't know, but i do know that i miss him.
it's hard going through things alone, it's hard not really having anybody that you just click with, to tell things to. but i know i'm better off, i mean how can i stay friends with someone who doesn't like me? with someone who thinks that our friendship is not worth saving? someone who just doesn't care? it hurts i'm going to be honest it does hurt, but i've been through a lot and i know that what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger. i just hate it, a lot of the times i find myself toking up and going out just to take my mind off of it. when chantra read to me what she wrote over the phone, i was at frances's house i felt my eyes getting heavy, and i really didn't want to cry, so i went outside and had a cigarette and we toked up before i came home, so that i would just go to sleep and not be able to think about anything. but i'm still not going to call first!
oh i'm getting cable connection tomorrow they should be here to hook things up at around noon time i'm sooooo excited. i can't wait, so until then i'm going to go. oh did any of you guys check out the grammys? |
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[Feb. 7th, 2004|12:45 am] |
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| | high | ] |
| [ | music |
| | CCR- CANDLE IN THE WINDOW (i think that's what it's called) | ] |
I'M HAPPY!!!!
.......................................................................................................I'M SO FUCKEN STONED RIGHT NOW!!
I'M LISTENING TO THE DOORS RIGHT NOW, I'M KINDA AMAZED ON HOW MUCH CONCENTRATION I HAVE WHEN I'M HIGH. I'M KINDA GETTING TIRED NOW, AND KINDA HUNGRY. I WISH I COULD ALWAYS FEEL THIS HAPPY. I'M GOING TO GO SEE C.C.R AGAIN THIS MONTH WITH MY DAD AND SISTERS AND MOTHER THIS MONTH, ON THE 15TH IT'S GOING TO BE AWESOME. I CANT WAIT, THEY'RE GOING TO BE AT THE CASINO, (THIS IS ACTUARIALLY GOING TO BE MY FIRST TIME AT A CASINO, AND I'M GOING FOR SURE NOTHING OR NOBODY IS GOING TO GET ME TO STAY) WELL ME AND DAWN ARE GOING TO GET OUT HAIR CUT TOGETHER, WE BOTH HAVE LONG HAIR SO WE'RE GOING TO GET IT HACKED OFF TOGETHER. TODAY I WENT TO FRANCES HOUSE, I WAS SUPPOSE TO GO TO ANDREWS WITH CHANTRA BUT ANDREW HAD WORK UNTIL 8PM AND THAT WAS A LITTLE LATE. SO FRANCES AND I DECIDED TO GET TOGETHER AND GET PIZZA. IT WAS FUN, ANTHONY AND CHRISTEN CAME OVER TO. TOMORROW I'M GOING TO ANDREW HOUSE WITH CHANTRA FOR SURE WE'RE HELLA GOING TO GET CHANTRA STONED FOR HER FIRST TIME IT'S EXCITING AND WATCH CKY. ON SUNDAY I THINK BRENDA IS GOING TO COME OVER, SHE'S SUPPOSE TO TEACH ME HOW TO DRIVE BUT WE'LL SEE WHAT HAPPENS.. I WENT OUT WITH HER ON THURSDAY, WE WENT TO BOARDERS AND DO OUR HOMEWORK TOGETHER. IT'S COOL SHE'S SUCH A GREAT FRIEND, I THINK THERE IS A POSSIBILITY OF HER BECOMING ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS. SHE'S SO FUCKEN CRAZY. I GOT HER A JOB WHERE I WORK. SO NOW WE WORK TOGETHER AND WE HAVE EACH OTHER IN A CLASS. IT'S AWESOME, SHE'S SO FREAKEN LOUD THOUGH, BUT IT'S OK IT'S FUN. WE USUALLY JUST DRIVE AROUND TOGETHER AND PUT THE RADIO UP LOUD (SHE HAS A GOOD SOUND SYSTEM) ROLL THE WINDOWS DOWN, AND DANCE AND SING OUT AS LOUD AS LOUD AS WE CAN. IT'S FUN SHE'S GREAT.
SCHOOLS GREAT...I'M WORKING REALLY HARD....GETTING GOOD GRADES......IN MY FRENCH CLASS WE TOOK AND ORAL EXAM (WE HAD TO TALK TO THE TEACHER IN FRENCH) I GOT A 9 1/2 OUT OF TEN. ON THE QUIZ I GOT A 9 OUT OF 10. THEN I TOOK A TEST ON THURSDAY, BUT I WON'T KNOW MY GADE UNTIL MONDAY. IN MY CHICANO-LATINO CLASS I HAD TO WRITE TWO ESSAYS.IN MY MATH CLASS I HAVE HOMEWORK EVERYDAY, IT'S ATLEAST 2 HRS OF HOMEWORK EACH NIGHT. IN MY SPEECH CLASS I HAVE TO GET READY FOR A TEST THAT'S GOING TO BE ON WEDNESDAY ON 5 CHAPTERS IN THE BOOK AND I HAVE TO GET READY FOR A CLASS PRESENTATION THAT'S GOING TO BE ON THE 24TH........ I THINK, IT HAS TO BE A 35 MIN PRESENTATION, EACH ONE OF OUR GROUP MEMBERS HAS TO ATLEAST SPEAK FOR 5 MINS. IN BAND I HAVE GIGS ALL THE TIME....I JUST HAD ONE THIS PAST WEDNESDAY.
BUT IT'S OK I'M GETTING IT ALL DONE. PLUS I HAVE TO WORK EVERYDAY, AND I HAVE TO DO 16 HRS IN THE FRENCH LAB THIS SEMESTER, AND 24 HRS IN THE TUTORIAL CENTER FOR EOP&S. PLUS 12 HRS OF COMMUNITY SERVICE FOR MY SPEECH CLASS. THAT'S A LOT OF WORK AND TIME.
I'M GOING TO GO NOW BYE |
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| "FIGHT" WITH DENISE |
[Feb. 2nd, 2004|05:50 pm] |
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| | H.I.M- JOIN ME IN DEATH | ] |
well i'm not sure, but i think that me and denise aren't talking:
ok i invited my so called "best friend" denise to go to the casino with me, i told her about it on sunday 1/25/04, he told me that she would get back to me the next day (monday) but she never did, i called her again on wed but she was someplace with some people that she always complains about, she told me that she would call me back again that night, i waited and she never called. she didn't call on thursday either. until it actuarially was friday (the day i was suppose to go) at like 8pm and she didn't even call, she text messaged me.
-denise:hey u sexy mama! wat r u doing? i have so much shit due this week! im doin lots of studying :(
-me:nothing really, just sitting here ._. call me sometime
-denise:r u still goin 2 da casino? i am so sleepy! i've ben goin 2 bed really late & wakin up & (i think she meant "@")5:30am
-me: i was going 2 go but u didn't call me & i didn't want 2 go &walk around by myself so don't worry about it im not going now.
-denise: sorry i didn't call. :( i pulled all my $$ out of da bank.
-me:
-denise: sorry i didn't call :( r u really mad? i know u r & im really sorry. :( i pulled all my $$ out of da bank da other day. dats bout da most exciting thing dat happened dis week.
-me: yeah i'm kinda hurt cause u told me u would call me back twice but u didn't. but it really doesn't matter now does it?
-denise: denise, im really sorry. i didn't mean 2 hurt you so bad :( don't worry im not going 2 shower u with excuses. again, im really sorry
-me: u didn't hurt me that bad, but i think that u owe me an explanation of why u didnt call me
-denise: honestly denise, i dont have 1. i haven't really talked to any1. except 4 alvin a couple of times @ work & 2 rosa dat day i went 2 her bros house. i tell every1 im busy.
-me: ok....call me whenever u feel like being a friend. i'll answer my phone. but i'll wait 4 u 2 call.
we haven't talk since then, i don't want to call her, but i know that i'm going to miss her, i'm just so tired of her doing this kinda shit to me. every time she gets a boyfriend, she forgets that she has a best friend. or maybe it's just me, being a dumb ass. i don't know what to do. some one help....give me advice, what should i do? was i wrong to get mad? should i call? please HELP!!! |
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